Nearly a month after her miscarriage, Chrissy Teigen opened up about her harrowing experience of giving birth to a stillborn son in an essay published on Medium.
Model, entrepreneur and cookbook author Chrissy Teigen suffered a miscarriage on 30 September, as FIT earlier reported.
“I didn’t know how to come back to real life so I wrote this piece for Medium with hopes that I can somehow move on but as soon as I posted it, tears flew out because it felt so....final. I don’t want to ever not remember jack.”Chrissy Teigen wrote on Instagram
She and her husband, John Legend lost their third child, who they named Jack over halfway into the pregnancy. She added, “Jack will always be loved, explained to our kids as existing in the wind and trees and the butterflies they see.”
The 34-year-old had been documenting her pregnancy on social media, posting live updates on the complications and worries the family faced. She revealed she had been admitted to the hospital post severe and constant bleeding, put on bed rest and given several blood transfusions.
Teigen was diagnosed with partial placenta abruption.
“I had already come to terms with what would happen: I would have an epidural and be induced to deliver our 20 week old, a boy that would have never survived in my belly (please excuse these simple terms).”Chrissy Teigen
Her post spoke of the kindness she has survived on, and how she is grateful for the love of friends and strangers. She also spoke of her husband John, adding, “A lot of people think of the woman in times like this but I will never forget that john also suffered through these past months while doing everything he could to take care of me. I am surrounded, in a human therapy blanket of love.”
Teigan’s honestly of the truth of miscarriage, the pain and the loss were applauded by many on social media who thought it could normalising an extremely agonizing yet common experience for women across the globe. Hopefully, sensitive posts like these will help erase the shame and stigma associated with miscarriages.
However, women’s health is shrouded in such stigma that a few people posted negative comments on her raw pictures. To them, she said,
“I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”Chrissy Teigen
She emphasized her power of choice and how the pictures served the purpose of demystifying such a distressing experience.
Teigen expressed her gratitude for “the moments of kindness that have been nothing short of beautiful”. Many people contacted her to share their own stories of pregnancy loss.
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