In the latest episode of the reality show Lock Upp, contestant Saisha Shinde opened up about being mentally abused in a relationship. Saisha, who was formerly Swapnil Shinde, used to be in a relationship with a man.
Speaking to Payal Rohatgi and Poonam Pandey, Saisha said that women are often at the end of abusive relationships but they don't talk about it.
Saisha added,
"Even I was abused in a relationship. It wasn't physical. It was mental abuse, but on another level. He made me feel like I am sh*t. He used to stand outside my door and just wait thinking that someone will come and I'll cheat on him. And, let's say if I cheat on him, he'll catch me red-handed and he will use it against me. He used to climb down the terrace, stand on the pipeline, open the blinders of the bathroom and see, secretly, if I am masturbating. To use that against me."
When Payal asked Saisha why she can't masturbate the latter said, "Because that's the reason that I don't want to have sex with him. Back then, I thought he's saying the right thing but I was never happy in there. Physically, I was never happy at all. I used to always wonder, 'kya mujhe samajh hi nahin aa raha hai' because I was a woman inside who was having sex with a gay man. Obviously, something was wrong but I told myself that I am gay only."
Poonam Pandey also said that she suffered domestic violence for four years before speaking up against it.
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